i will be..thin..i will be happy..
thank you,ana

 

The girls in that video look frail, really frail. I think the reason you want to look so much like them and why they want to look like that is because you want to achieve perfection. Being fat is not hard in the modern world but being bone stick thin is, so that's why you would see it as an accomplishment. However, consider, who'se set the requirements for perfection, exactly? There's no real defenition of perfetion. Perfection is a word. That's all it is. Like giraffe, or rock or dirt its a word . It's a word and you're attaching a trunk load of meaning to it- not just you, but a lot of people- like that pefection will make you happy, will make people like you, will make you loved etc etc etc etc. Is it true? Possibly, if you'll attach the meaning "happy" when you reach your ideal weight.
I think starvation is an excuse for not living. Your scared, that's all there is to it and your dealing with it by making yourself as insignificant and invisible as you possibly can. I invite you to start living, to take chances, to love with no strings attached instead of waiting for some miracle to happen. It's not an order, I'm not shunning you or making you wrong for the way you deal with life, I'm just inviting you. Life can be beautiful when all your energy isn't put on loosing weight and I promise you, you can accomplish a lot more than just dropping kilos.
Infinite kisses and hugs to you.
good luck.
p.s. check out this website, landmarkeducation.com . I had a situation similar to yours and I completely catapulted forward like exponentially. I think signing up would change your life totally.